Accomplishments of Life

So it's been way too long since I've written anything meaningful on my blog. Lately I've been juggling my hopes, dreams, desires for my life and the impact I hope to make in this world. The more time I spend thinking about what I hope to gain in life, the more I find what I do is somewhat silly. The majority of my life is spent submerged in my studies, but in the end of the day what does this really accomplish in my life: financial security- materialistic things. This is an ever ending battle that I find myself trying to rise above- I do not want to let the trials of life to blind me of what I truly want in life: an that is a life filled with meaning and significance that reflects the daughter God created me to be.

     A personal struggle I deal with is the pressure to be the best I can be; sometimes I forget I am only human and I can't be great at it all, because it's God's greatness that is my real strength and at times I will be destined to fall. However, over the course of the short life I've lived so far it's been these trials and struggles that have forced me to grow into a better me! All I can expect of myself is to handle each situation as it comes, learning to call upon God when I am weak to be my strength through these difficult times.

   When my dad and I get into one of our deep talks about life I tell him how I sometimes feel like I'm not living my life; I can get so eager for my life to progress to the point where I can be done with school that I forget to enjoy the present moments in my life. It's when I take a step back and ask myself why do I think God has me experiencing the things I am in my life that I am able to appreciate everyone and everything in my life right now instead of focusing on getting it all over. It's a sad thing when I notice that some people who once were especially important to me have slowly drifted out, but there has also been new faces that have blossomed within my life and slowly began to develop roots of importance and meaning to me, people I wouldn't trade for anything. 

A Walk Down Memory Lane

So these last two days have felt surreal- with the relief of finals being over and the return to my home town has felt dream like for me. While the comfort of familiar faces have been very rewarding, this visit has already made me realize how much I love where I go to college! I feel so blessed to have found a place where I can call home, despite the fact I've only been living out in Las Cruces for the past five months. As I look around the city that I grew up in, the streets that I know like the back of my hand- I realize that I don't think I will ever permanently move back to Santa Maria. The experience I've had away from the only place I'd ever called home (up until recently) now seems so foreign and different from what I want for my life. While I will always hold a special place for my childhood hometown, I don't see it holding a future for me. I'm excited to see what other adventures God holds for my future.

Stop Putting your Dreams off - "Start Living Now"

The Top 10 Ways to Start Living Your Life

"Everybody dies, but not everybody lives".

1. Give yourself permission to claim your life.    stop living YOUR life according to others' expectations and rules.
2. Define what living means to you. When you look back on the life you lived what meaning do you want it to hold?
3. Stop living in the future.  Ask yourself, “Why not now?”
4. Surround yourself with people who enjoy living. 
5. Lay down your pain and your anger. Let it go, it's just holding you down.
6. Let the losers win. Don't trouble yourself with things that are of no real importance to you.
7. Create energy. Jump to forgiveness and love, then figure things out. Being on the defensive isn’t living. It’s hiding from life.
8. Learn the physical symptoms of when your head and heart become disconnected. Understand your emotions so you have the power to influence them in the right direction.
9. Take small risks that push your boundaries in every way. We grow through living life to its fullest potential-stop holding back.
10. Value and protect the people and the places you care about. A job isn’t a life. It’s just a part of one. Let the people you care about come first, and let everyone know that you do.

An Important Chapter in my Life

Sometimes when I look back on how much my life has changed, from where I live, the things I do, to the people who are apart of my life-- I can't help but sometimes think of those few special people who once were so important in my life and who are now no more than just another familiar face- if that. It's sad how we disassociate with people sometimes because of past issues, change of hearts, or the simple fact that we've grown into people that no longer have anything in common. My dad once told me that there is only so much time in our days which makes our time valuable, so in the end of the day we spend that time with people who treat us right, build us up and love us for the wonderfully people we've grown into. I do miss some people from my past and wish nothing but the best for them still, but I guess I just have to come to realize that there is a point where two friends can become strangers-- does that make them any less of my friend? No, they were and always will hold a special place in my life, and I thank God for all my experiences. I guess what I'm trying to say is that even though you will never read this "thank you for touching my heart and helping me to grow into the young lady I am today!" --To "Friend from the past"

Decisions Decisions

There comes a place and time when we all must face reality and grow up- I keep being told that I'm apparently "growing up so much" lol I'm slowly seeing the distance between achieving my dream getting closer and closer, as I put forward the hard work and dedication. While it is not easy being so far away from all those whom I love so dearly- I am greatful for the lack of distractions out here, I can focus purely on me and growing, in more ways than one, and not feel the slightest bit guilty about not being able to make time for others. I have set a few goals for myself this year; which I will gladly share with you: to grow closer to God, to repair some of the broken relationships in my life and make amends to the people I have treated poorly in the past. I want to take responsibility for my improper behavior, and take the first strides toward living a more faith-filled life. While I know this year will be a challenge for me-both intellectually and emotionally I am ready to take it on, because that means in the end of the day that I will be stronger from those tough times. These last couple weeks have been filled with preparations for the upcoming term and stressful organization- as I attempt to try to get back on track to graduate. While I so dearly want this- I know at the same time there is only so much I can do, and after that the situation is out of my hands and I will just have to deal with the outcome the best way possible. So far I'm loving the text I have for my two classes about physical education and with each reflection it's a reminder of how I feel this career field is a match for my personality and interest. I want to help others through my line of work, something that I will be able to do as a physical therapist =] I look forward to the changes that will be coming my way- till then I hope all is well in your life.